Saturday, December 11, 2004
yay.
time takes no notice of the things that really matter. so now it's back to our favourite word of the day. singalong with me now. "oh we're so aimless". and so now we're caught in this vortex of stillness. the night's closing early, and we'll remember how we used to smile and those days of endless dreaming. i feel incredibly restless and the sudden rushes of adrenaline and boundless energy takes its toil over my spirit as i become increasingly anxious and desperate to diffuse this unsettled sporadic burst of wildness; this pressing urge to do SOMETHING. talk is cheap really. before and during exams, all that lingered on our lips were "let's do this after A's, let's go swimming, let's go tanning, let's go clubbing, let's walk thru the ulu alleys and highways and byways of singapore and go bargain hunting, let's learn wakeboarding, let's resume training, let's join the wantoks team and form our own rugby team."
yeah. righhttt. -_- and other days i just feel like a slob. and i pig out and rent dvds and conduct a mini movie marathon in the living room, complete with nachos and melted cheese and chocolate custard pudding (which yours truly actually whipped up herself) and potato chips and HL choc milk and honey stars and my fav Tasty biscuits. it's a wonder i lost fricking 5kg. yeah bite me. i weigh 49kg now. which. is. weird.
i just wanna get high. but alcohol is not on my agenda. and i feel so stifled and icky with this surging blood currents that i have to suppress intermittently. and this is making me enormously fidgety, and at night i just plunge into bed with a magnificent sigh bemoaning the waste of an ENTIRE DAY; an entire day which i did nothing useful or fun or happening or constructive at all.
7 months is no 100m dash. but i feel like i'm at the 50m mark now. just wanting to rush headlong into things and be overwhelmed by the amount of feats to accomplish in a day. but i have no Hera mother, and i have no impossible twelve tasks to complete. i'd love to be an adventurer, but i'm no Jason and i certainly have no argonauts and no ship and no golden fleece and no ailing father. MY LIFE is a complete blank and i'm praying desperately for new people to come leave their watershed several, little imprints, their toenails dug deep into my wet sandy heart, a stick trail scrawling heartsy patterns and names with circles over the letters "i". wadever. just anything.
and yes that inevitable, pervasive, perpetual word. love. don't fucking ask me how's my lurrrve life. i'll give you the same answer over and over again. one and a half years single and still counting.
why do i even bother. i should slow down. Vienna will always be there.
slow down you crazy child
your so ambitious for a juvenile
but then if your so smart
tell me why are you still so afraid?
where's the fire
whats the hurry about
you better cool it off
before you burn it out
you've got so much to do
and only so many hours in a day
when will you realise,
Vienna waits for you
you've got your passion
you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied
dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
why don't you realise,
Vienna waits for you
Joyce Lim unzipped at 9:55 PM with 1 comments
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One word sums it all up, "incoherence".
Guess you should take a step back, or two for that matter.
Check your compass, and if you dont have one, then ask for guidance from fellow wayfarers, adjust your direction, restock your supplies from the nearest inn and then venture again, headlong into the unknown, into the obscure that is life.
I suppose you are still too faraway to glimpse the light at the end of the tunnel, however seeking it is a challenge, a perverse yet provocative one, but well thats the excitement, the Viagra(or cialis for that matter);priceless
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Guess you should take a step back, or two for that matter.
Check your compass, and if you dont have one, then ask for guidance from fellow wayfarers, adjust your direction, restock your supplies from the nearest inn and then venture again, headlong into the unknown, into the obscure that is life.
I suppose you are still too faraway to glimpse the light at the end of the tunnel, however seeking it is a challenge, a perverse yet provocative one, but well thats the excitement, the Viagra(or cialis for that matter);priceless
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: 12/13/2004 3:07 AM