Friday, December 08, 2006
new blog--> limqihui.blogspot.com
-WHAT THE BLOODY FFFFFFFFFFF! POSTSCRIPT: STUPID BLOGGER. i upgraded my account and now i can't POST a new entry. i can only EDIT past entries. at this rate, i'm gonna have to have a new address. and this would SUCK becos i've become so attached to this one sigh. ARGH.-
AND AND TAUFIK HIDAYAT STRUCK ASIAN GOLD! put off THREE game points from his opponent, caught up and won that same set! AWESOME! a little bit of my schoolgirl crush is coming back.
hello. so my mom told me this morning she wasn't going to splurge on a christmas gift for me this year because I get to travel around the US of A next year and that's really more than enough and i quite agree.
so i said ok. there is just one christmas gift i want this year and it isn't bought with a single cent! but you MUST say yes i told my mom. that kind of question is dangerous she said but had to force out a yes because i tickled her so hard she went red in the face.
so yay, pok gets to sit at the table with us this christmas and try my grandma's turkey stuffing and christmas cake and he gets to join in the fun when we play pictionary and guesstures hooray! I am games master for christmas hoho
and today, as usual, more photos of me than of pok heh :)
Joyce Lim unzipped at 2:37 AM with 0 comments Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Instead of welling up with emotion at the joy of freedom ahead, i shrunk back into my seat and shrivelled up into a decayed leaf. I could not very well have been a Nicole, Vanessa, or Rachel. A 'Marcy' should do it. 'Marcy' speaks of a bespectacled four rimmed midget with gangly limbs that knock each other about involuntarily. Marcy looks the sort that would apologise for the way she looks.
And so a deep pervasive sense of mousiness loosed its briary arms around the pits of Marcy's stomach and pumped sour adrenaline through my timorous body. Why'd she ignore me, Did she not like me? Questions similar to those i ask myself haphazardly sometimes when people would rather stand than sit next to me on a bus. Or how thoughts run peripatetic of the time I laughed gregariously and spilt some saliva on the cement floor. Shit. Had they noticed? Just now, before the commencement of the paper, a tutorial group mate told me in his jolly manner to acquire an accent and try some of that uthwbek when I go to texas. I motioned to my ear and he repeated the word.
reabstlei.
"just try eating it", this other girl offered. ok, i simply smiled and pretended i knew exactly what the heck he was saying. While, of course, mildly awkward at the thought that they might have seen through my pathetic display.
so i walked through the exam hall after the paper, pushing my way through the chattering melee of people who found other familiar faces while I affected a half hearted commitment for the exit. through the darkening drizzle, calling pok seemed the best option. Then we hung up and i found myself in delicate spaces next to other faces mindful of my solitude on the campus bus toward home. it was then i wished i had trusty podywody. a girl looks more occupied and indifferent with earphones sticking out of her ears. the largeness and expansiveness of the feeling weighed down upon my spongy little heart.
it's random times like these which make me feel so small, un-needed and un-heeded. clumsy, choking and full of teeth.
HAPPIER TIMES ARE HERE ANYWAYS. i will watch "Singing in the Rain" hongy so very nicely burnt for me. i shall post up photos of days when joyce prevails over Marcy.
Joyce Lim unzipped at 7:49 PM with 0 comments Monday, December 04, 2006
LAST PAPER TOMORROW. oh God when have I felt such agony. Joyce Lim unzipped at 8:26 PM with 0 comments
aching with the preparation and moaning away the throbs of anxiety, i suddenly feel shooting pangs of exhilaration at the days of freedom ahead, then check myself just in time to remember that it is still not over yet.
i have another paper tomorrow. for goodness sake I cannot take this much longer. my whole body trembles in anticipation, just waiting and waiting for the last paper to come go, and it has been so long. The runner at the start line psyches and tenses up just before the horn blasts. The lack of perseverence to hold those muscles tense while he waits for the go ahead is the reason he falters and makes a false start.
oh how do i persevere and keep myself psyched up till tomorrow goes? the waiting, above all, tests the durability of the mind under pressure to hold, hold it in. I might get tired of waiting.
grrrr. tomorrow, mambo, shopping for texas clothes, doing all the things we wrote in a list to do after exams with pok, hong's party, guesstures, and hoping pok spends christmas with my family and finally bringing Russ to a big green field where he can run around madly smelling up people's ass cracks AND THAT STUPID DRIVING TEST WHICH I WILL SO DAMN WELL PASS.
these are a few of my favourite things. Joyce Lim unzipped at 12:14 PM with 0 comments
Saturday, December 02, 2006
drained by yesterday's paper, I kept going on and on about how much i'd studied for this paper and how i'd kill myself if i don't get an a for this module. then pok commented in his usual way how I never do study much anyway and all I did for the past few weeks was watch tv, eat and sleep.
BUT, i shot back quickly, and then hushed up. i still think i should get an A.
nevermind, something got to me a few days ago and i think i wrote one too many harsh comments on a particular blogger. It was certainly not edifying. But i am simply amazed at the amount of time these uk students have. do they not slog it half as much as we nus/smu/ntu students do? every single night is party here, a party there, a drunken fit here, a photo galore night there. and then they get home and blog about the paucity of sleep and all for what? There has to be A POINT made. God knows. so what's your point, i feel like asking them all the bloody time.
nevermind, shall i share my travel plans with you? it's texas, then newyork during spring break (I hope), and hopefully an LA after, san francisco maybe with flowers in my hair, and if the US government insists I get out of the country and come in again as a tourist after my student visa expires a trip to Canada to visit Aunt Dolly would be nice. Last stop new york again and i get to see hong.
i hope pok gets the time to fly over just once to visit me.
righto, waxing lyrical will start when exams end. shall i spare you another one of my annual christmassy posts? Joyce Lim unzipped at 1:37 PM with 0 comments