Saturday, November 18, 2006
catharsis and confessioni've been posting almost everyday for the past one week or so. i gather it's the denial mechanism nudging against the build-up towards the exams. oh sigh, whine, pout and whimper. can i ever be stellar-feller, well maybe, all my life i've never tried so hard to work towards the top. I'm the sort that works just enough to scrape by with respectable grades because i don't care for perfection. I'm generally satisfied with mediocrity as long as i still have my place along the elites. ergo, mediocrity according to their standards is enough for me. so one can rattle off and name-drop as often as one likes, using them as shield boosters. so for example i would go Hi, i'm from hwachong, and i was on scholarship. The part where i did enormously disappointing for A's would be omitted shamelessly, not to mention the part where i callously distributed away my scholarship money on God knows what.
what a poseur eh.. ah well we all are.
and speaking of money, i've been accused of being materialistic twice. once, by my God-fearing other worldly daddy, who has since stopped his pointless pontification, and by another person whom i shan't deign to mention.
well thanks. But i prefer to analogise it to guys and their primary issue. There are only two kinds of males in this world. One, those who admit to porn, and two, those who keep mum about it.
I don't see the need to admit to or deny something so universally paradoxical. If i am materialistic, i am only in so far as the rest of the world is. And if i say i am not, well well, we'll all be partners in our denial, shan't we?
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