devastatingly human

dear jon. i hope you read this. somehow i'm hoping this post will turn magically into a form of a curse for you. i don't know, maybe your house will turn into a pillar of salt, maybe your area will be flooded with blood for 77 days and nights and i'll see you floating by on a drifting plank of maggot infested filthy piece of broomstick begging for help from the raging storm. or maybe you'll turn gay, reluctantly, and then she'll leave you for hmm.. julian? heck i don't know mann, do you? i've always wondered what i've ever seen in you. my eyes are thus opened now; i now know the answer to this elusive question; NOTHING.

i hope i'm not lapsing into a Xiaxue bitch curse rant mercilessly archetypal mode. this is not what i am. usually my heart's made of soft wool, which melts like ice cream when the antagonist shows the teensy weensy form of penitance; like when they apologise without remorse, my heart breaks into reproachment and forgiveness.

i am very merciful. in fact, i believe i shall forgive my much hated thorn in the arse, flesh, and hairy armpits when the sun sets and rises approximately 24 hours later. a better approximation would be when i get out of bed.. which would be around 4 in the afternoon. that would be heresy. no no, my new resolution is to stick to unforgiveness and hatred; zenith at its extreme.

dear jon, you can't be bothered with my nonsense. i find it so very amusing since it's always been you whose been bothering me with stupid inane messages. darling i really hope you read this, but i realise it's an impossible feat. so fuck you, fuck your ailing balls, just grow some and maybe one day you'll tell me the truth and confess that you've been the funkiest lying bastard around.

till then, i'll be happily praying for a near death accident specially for you.

toodles :)

Joyce Lim unzipped at 4:53 PM with 5 comments
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whoaa.. cursing and bitching at its best

# posted by

Anonymous : 10/17/2004 5:12 PM

hmmm jon? isn't he the guy you fancy? sorry if i'm mistaken. this is just what i gathered from reading your blog occassionally... you know, after your entry on how you have something for the name 'jonathan'. don't mean to pry though =)

-reader of your blog

# posted by

Anonymous : 10/17/2004 10:37 PM

it's a love hate thing :)

# posted by

Joyce Lim : 10/18/2004 12:46 AM

hope u find happiness babe.and all the best for As.

# posted by

sae : 10/18/2004 11:07 PM

thanks :)

# posted by

Joyce Lim : 10/18/2004 11:45 PM