Thursday, December 23, 2004
i thought i'd spend the nights dancing and catching up with friends at jazz bars, sipping wine, having christmas themed sleepovers with elaborate music and decorations and delectable food. but nah.. christmas this year is a very quiet affair. at least it is for me. but then again it has been always this quiet every year. and not that i'm complaining. it's like the time of the morning where you've just woken up, and you adore the simple quiet serenity that each bathed anew morning brings, without Morning Madness blasting through 98.7 FM. and you lie there in double tranquility, loving the feeling of wakeful-sleepiness, that drifting in and out of slumberland. a nice subdued gurgle in your heart, a peaceful "hairpee".
and i like christmas eves more than christmas day itself. somehow the charm of the actual day has expired over to the penultimate for me. the whole fulgence of nights adds on to the magic sparkle of a christmas eve night. and because we know santa doesn't come in the day, he comes at night with his reindeer and his big sack of goodies down the chimney. he doesn't come on christmas day, he comes on the eve. and at night we children from one to ninety-two stay up till midnight to hear santa bump his way through a chimney, or giggle to think of how he would attempt to break into our house in sunny singapore considering we have no fireplace.
so i have this proclivity for nights. and mornings. early mornings actually. i like quietness. quiet family affairs and family celebrations of christmas. to tell u the truth, being the party social wheeee girl i am, i never enjoy spending my christmas eve nights with my friends. maybe an after dinner party but i like having christmas eve dinner with my family. i like that we always sit around the christmas tree unwrapping presents. i like that we always celebrate it on the night before christmas. i like that we always play my favourite christmas golden CD which is about as old as i am every year on christmas eve while we cut the turkey and have stuffing and gravy and pudding and pie. too bad we have no fireplace. when i was younger i used to hang stockings on our mantelpiece to give Santa a chance to amaze me with little trinkets. and i remember we had a raindeer train to decorate around the christmas tree. but the excitement fades with age and slowly replaced by a much subtle nuance. again, if you were to ask, i wouldn't say i miss my childhood christmases, that excited jumparound feeling. i'm beginning to learn how to relinquish my excitable ebullient christmas for a more luminous and effulgent one.
there are those who dont' celebrate christmas. and i tell you your missing out on the simple joy that comes every season. be it the joy of a family get together, the simple joys of decorating a tree together, or the moonlit illumined to add magic and incandescent glows to a very special night. you don't find Christmas eve. She finds her way into your heart, where love's light gleams and stays that way till the new year comes.
i'll be home for christmas but have yourself a merry little christmas too. she brings a smile to my face everytime she visits once a year. Joyce Lim unzipped at 3:51 PM with 2 comments
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merry christmas!!! ;) you going for the fort canning event on christmas day??? haha. gonna have a lucky draw there, n i have my eye on the apple comp..:P
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