Thursday, May 05, 2005
sometimes i pass by Kent Ridge and i miss the students there. wonder if they do still remember THAT miss lim. the one whose always trying to get them to sympathise with Anne Frank.
whatever.. no inspiration and no pipe dreams for today. i really just can't be bothered anymore. canada, uk, singapore. and the best part is? the local university doesn't want me. wtf.. i'm lucky i can escape to canada anytime man, the days of single citizenship is over, dual citizenship is the era baby and i just found out that the tuition fees there are how how how disgustingly cheap.
whatever.. it sounds intensely childish to whine out here that nobody understands me. or at least they don't wait for me to finish. or at least i say too little and in turn creates much vague assumptions. i think i should just shut up. but no... when i shut up, they take it as allowance to carry on their pontification. all your tiddle taddle and chiding are blunt arrows that leave their bruises which neither kills nor soothes. they imprint blue black marks on my arms like laughing mocking faces and i parade them around unwittingly while they throb every few hours to remind me that they are there to stay-- at least for quite some time.
whatever.. and it sounds vaguely elitist to be more than mildly shocked at my students' behavior. sure, their a rough and tough bunch, they'd survive longer than me on their own had i been that age but it is appalling-- their attitude towards learning. they think it's a big joke. i think it's a big bore, or at least that's what i thought i went to school. but at least i accepted it with a degree of amiability and willingness.
God sometimes i feel like throwing all their books out the window and order them to leave. my class, the school walls, the school gates, just leave, since they think we are holding them against their will. they think we teachers don't understand them. they think we don't know that they value their friends, that they are more than a accolade of "THAT lazy kid in 4N1". sometimes i feel like showing them my middle finger and rail back with a "SO FUCKING WHAT?" I have friends too, i show loyalty when it is required of me, i show angst and pride that every teenager thinks is the sign of maturity and great depth of character; and i still do relatively well in school.
my point? my point indeed. i hate crapshit excuses. i just deplore plain laziness. plain ARROGANCE. IGNORANT arrogance. reminds me of "Nick" who commented on my blog in sept last year. the stupid faggort didn't even know what the hell he was talking about and i sense this mirror image in my students. it's one thing to be stupid, it's another thing to come flaunt it off as though it's one big spectacular achievement, and then snarl defensively at teachers thinking we are the perpetrators of your bumbling ignorance and discrimination.
this is directed at no one in particular. in fact, all my classes seem to tolerate my presence. none of them has ever insulted or shown disrespect to me. but still.. i feel the need to rant
off to lessons bye Joyce Lim unzipped at 9:56 AM with 4 comments
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hey joyce.. cheer up ya? i'm sure u'll get a letter from NUS soon. heard that they're sending out the letters in batches. so don't worry too much. trust in God ya?
so what have u been up to lately? haven't heard from u in a while. & when is our meeting ever going to materialise??:P
-jean
so what have u been up to lately? haven't heard from u in a while. & when is our meeting ever going to materialise??:P
-jean
# posted by 
: 5/08/2005 8:51 PM
: 5/08/2005 8:51 PM
hi hi "wakemeup" your real name please? haha yes i miss the students at KentRidge too! so how? do you appreciate reading Anne Frank now or is the class still very bored by it? study hard ok
and jean.... hey babe haha.. ok ok i'll TRY to organise one as soon as i can. right now i'm bogged down by work. miss you hug
and jean.... hey babe haha.. ok ok i'll TRY to organise one as soon as i can. right now i'm bogged down by work. miss you hug
hi ms lim,u wanna know who is "wakemeup"?.....he is..................James from 2n3!!
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# posted by : 5/30/2005 10:55 AM
: 5/30/2005 10:55 AM