devastatingly human

and everybody is out partying on halloween. i'm sorry, these sort of party party camaraderie moods need to kick in first before i feel like going out of the house tonight, or everynight/day for that matter. i like staying home now. probably because eusoff hall is such a fricking hot and sweltering camp but there you go, nothing's gonna make me step out of the house tonight. not even if my friends drive down and persuade me to, unless they manhandle me.. i'm dangerously cantankerous because of the long ride home. so infuriated i'm close to tears. and not like clubbing's going to make it better. at the end of the day, we'll step out of the pretense, fog and repetitive music with a bigger void to fill, that goin home stretches even larger.

i realised i've never seen the sun set or sun rise at home before. the highest i've been at home was the 4th storey, yeah.. i've never lived in a high-rised building. and i've often wondered what i've missed out on. rowdy gatherings at the void deck, watching ah beis playing chinese chess on the way home from school in the afternoon, windy gusts at the windows, but most importantly, the sunsets and the sunrise. it must be lovely to live high up in the sky. watching traffic snail their way home, meandering through the bottlenecks like a leaky tap. living down here only reminds me how precariously close i am to the ground, it takes a shorter time to fall than when your way up there.

ipodywody has been sucha good boy lately. he guesses his way through 4 gig of songs and pertinently matches the lyrics, tunes to my emo-ness at times. he isn't as good as zenboy but his getting there. tonight i walked home via the esoteric back pathway and ipodywody immersed such comfort through my favourite song.

i guess we all need those lights, when we follow our footsteps home.

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