Sunday, March 05, 2006
today was church service in a long while. i want to come back. i do, really. Love was preached today and i am enlightened. and i've always struggled with knowing and feeling His love. Knowing's one thing, i say "i know", it's easy; words are cheap and easy. But do i feel.. and i battle this ambivalence all the time. Sure, i know a miracle when i see one, but that was years ago.
that was years ago.
and guilt tells me i don't love Him, because i don't know how to love or what it really means to love Him back. All those extemporous posts of my will against His, and i creep and back away from church because i doubt myself, and doubt if i do Love.
ah well, let's just come clean. I don't. But at least now i know what it is to love. To sum it up, merely love others, and you love your God.
Every cause has a cost. but now for photos...





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